When life turns the negative way.

 sometime.. i hardly understand myself.

i dunno how i feel, what i want, what i am good at.
fickle minded forever..

Just who am i ?

busy like a bee, but i hope all goes smoothly. (:
lets just not make things difficult in our lifes.





p/s: din say i'd stop hating you though !

been so long since i last blogged here. and sad to say i hv come bck agn aft 3mths.
im feeling isolated, so i choose to write here, in silence.

why.. when i read something. i just think too much. my weakness. its still my weakness. am i really part of you guys ? do u guys really meant what you say ? all those shits that you all tell me and end up im not part of it.

im feeling super sad. i feel like crying. it seems like im not impt all along. no one has ever spare a thought for me. no one has ever leave a space for me. im like transparent. hate the feeling when people treat me as transparent.

all de excuses.. i have enough.

seems like frenships aint the toughest ships in de world. what are friends for ? i ask myself.
is i really true that when you gain smth you will lost smth ?
so.. by gaining some bonds w my classmates i hv to lose some bonds w my frens ?
what logic is that.

why is it. no one ever bother bout me. everyone seems so close w each other, jus not me.
i hate it !!!!!!

bunch of shits.

hate ppl who are not straightforward.
hate ppl who mumbles.
gate ppl wh don give a fuck bout other ppl.
hate ppl who insist the way they wanted w./o sparing a thought for others.
hate ppl who simple enjoy their life and forget bout their frens.

yes. i knw. u all have a wonderful life.
ya im fucking jealous.
so what.

damn it.

im gonna tell myself for the last time. stop being stupid over these tihngs.
you don fcuking care i dont fucking bother also. 
it its de end, so be it.
i cant always b the one giving in.

i think theres no difference in my life if some ppl din appear anyw.
pairs. im always singular.

i dno why. i always think of these when im alone.
i hate, but yet i cant choose.
well, can say i started everything.
whatever...
im nt an impt factor in any of u ppl life anyw.
even if one day im dead, will u even come ?
not too sure.

CAN SOMEONE PLEASE BOTHER ME ?
i need a true fren.
someone who thinks of me whether they need me.

bottom line.
im still sad.

im feeling empty.
wheres my superman ?

AM I 
Two-faced
?

are you ?
I need to question myself again. 
i dont think no one isnt.

SOMEHOW.
( dont ask )

i decided to post something happpppy here !! :D 
although almost no one know i update here luh. :b



and yeah, im going for the second round of Mcgriddles tomorrow !!
yeah, i hope i can wake up. xD
dont people always say 'early bird catches the worm' ?
I SO GONNA BE THAT EARLY BIRD !! 
absolute cravings, but some people say not nice. 
to be exact, you are actually eating pancakes and sausage mcmuffins together. LOL.
still , its sedupppp ! bagus !
( my another recent favourite ! )

 

sometimes, i wonder... ... 
is there really some things hidden from me?
*
why are they not supposed to be told ?
who's real who's not .
who has been pretending .
its all left silent. 

why cant people have initiative.
why am i always making the first move.
it really sucks when things drift. 
i cant see the future now. 
i cant see through you, i just cant. 

was is really my problem from the beginning ?


i hate it when people keep things from me. 

When you are together with your partner after years,
do you love the person more and more Or
do you get 'used to them' just like they're a basic necessities everyday?
(feelings fade somehow)

Contradicting, hur ? 


****
i especially like the lyrics of this song 对的人 by 戴爱玲. 


你问在我心中 是否还苦恼
那次受伤 否决了爱的好
谢谢你的关照 我一切都好
一个人不算困扰那次流过的泪
让我学习到
如何祝福如何转身不要
在眼泪体会到 与自己拥抱
爱不是一种需要是一种对照爱虽然很美妙
却不能为了寂寞
又陷了泥沼
爱要耐心等待 仔细寻找
感觉很重要
宁可空白了手 等候一次
真心的拥抱
我相信在这个世界上 一定会遇到
对的人出现在眼角
对的人出现能愿意为了一份爱付出去多少
然后得到多少并不计较
当我想清楚的时候
我就算已经准备好
放手去爱 海阔天高

( cant wait ! )
 

( iif euu dunch readd iie tiio euu wurx )

 

Hi all ! (i decided to post this halfway done draft, even though its not completed)

Today had been a-oh-my-fugging-god-i-really-wanna-laugh-till-i-die-day. Billy is so gonna be the next best participant to film Step Up 3 if there's any audition for it and he ever took part in it. LOL.

( ima taurus ! )

PS: My desktop keyboard died on me and im using not-mine laptop now and wont be able to use again, so its hard for me to tell when will be my next time blogging again! 

You may see me online but Pls note: Do not PM me because i wont be able to reply you ! 

till then;
teeseesee.

Tall and charming there he stood by...
waiting for me to knock off..
and we headed for simple pleasant dinner.
it was short but the hugs are still warm. 
aww, simple, loving, and sweeet. 
♥♥♥

( i long for him to appear again... )

♥ im loving pink martini. 

 Dammmn fuggggg it. 
i clicked the More colors and i allowed pop ups and My post is GONE !
Now i have to retype. _|_

{13 Mar, haircutting with cec, yui & friends }

i shall try to cut the crap for as short as possible. we went (or rather for me) all the way to Hougang Twister to cut me hair. opened by Mark lee, lolz. cec cut Bob ! i think its nice but she say like children, lol. for me, i cut my fringe to those.. dunno how to say. brrr. but its different from what i showed the hair stylist. -.- at first i feel wierd, but now slightly better. its okay cause my hair grow fast. xD yesterday it was between my brows and eyes, today its touching my eyelashes ! i got difficulty blinking with all da fug hair covering my eyes. its this good or baD? lol. kinda miss my old look too, cause i now turned childish looking. LOL. 

Had the Tom yum cecilia intro-ed. not bad, better than DG kopitiam. && after that yui went yishun with her friends for hairdye (which was about to close when they reached) while cecilia and i wenta Plaza sing for Ice Monster. xD shiok. && after that spent quite a long time at de Arcade. Silent hill is nice !! haha. Then we bought DIY cha soba @ Daiso to shared ! (cooked separately, LOL) and slacked @ XIN BA KE (starbucks, lol) to play Psp and Ds without buying their drinks. xDD and its already too late for yui to come all the way from yishun to Ps so we all headed home. 

OHMYGOD.
i cant believed i actually FORGET to go to work today ! 
very ridiculous hur ??? 
but luckily was told by elaine that theres enough manpower, so its okay. 
the worse is that i didnt know until i ask elaine. LOLZ.
wonder if im gonna get a scolding/nagging/saying from the new mit. x/

have rotted for 4 days at home. ZZZ  im really certified to be a pig. i wake up AFTER 5PM these 4 days. 
yah, all After 5 !! i should really die.
i have been busy 鬥牛要不要-ING. lol
really hate it when they have SUUUUPER Ai Mei relationships and still not confessing to each other ! grrr. 
and realllly dont like Li wei aka Zi cong lah. so damn stupid like catapillar keep following Hebe aka Sheng Xue everywhere. 
ITS VERY IRRITATING OKAY. zzz.
i keep telling myself to advertise my blogshop cuz its as so quiet there you can hear yourself breathe. 
BUTTT, I FAIL TO DO SO !! i ought to die for the second time!! x_x 

I should really start practicing good habits of turning in early and waking up early as well ! 
Take a look.

( for the sake of good health )

YOZ, back to blog.
there's something wrong with my blogspot i cant seem to enter. =C
anyway. lets rewind time back to 6th March.

( Sky of Love & a chunk of para. )

Hiro & Mika. <33.

happily ever after ?

if my life was a drama...

Today was fun, hahaha. boring but fun. LOL. wth is that ??

Okay, one thing is that Singapore is reallllly boring until like dont know what i dont know why people can go shopping like everyday also got new mall open and have bags and bags of goods in their hands. really got so many things to eye on meh ?? And and, one shop sell the same items everyday. 

lets take it as Shop A has 50 items everyday. in one day, maybe 1000 went into the shop. and in 365days, im quite sure MOST of the singaporeans would have been to and seen all 50items of this shop. And why is it the shop still can sell all the same thing without losing money. zzz. 

LOL, ps, no pictures. :pppppppppppppppp (someone LOVEEE this icon leh :ppp)


arghhhh, im hving the confusions between schs and money matters again. 
fuckfuckfuck.
 

Yoz, i ish back.
seems like its very quiet over here @ LJ ! 
Hmpf, lazy bums all tag at cbox instead of here lahhhh. :p 

( IVE GOT MY STAR CONTACT LENSE !!! )

someone so funny, ownself dont want let other know ownself go and tell people. ZZZ.
brothers, really. laugh my ass off.